So, let me continue with 2014’s July through December.
July
July was the month of your birthday (it rained that day, but we still had a picnic by the river), of my office’s birthday (quite a party) and – of course – of Germany winning the soccer world cup (oh what an event!). It was also the month that we started regular pizza dinners with friends. And there was a beer fest by the river on a day that was too hot to actually do anything. I’m sure it was dangerous to even leave the house that day, let alone to drink beer. I remember that I felt very relaxed around that time. I was ready to enjoy summer. You were doing better and left the clinic. For the first time that year I felt relieved. But, unfortunately, being back home was too difficult for you and you had to return to the clinic. Not long after you returned to the clinic you started the ECT. It was hard to see you go through its side effects.
August
In August I had a successful internal job interview. My friend and I celebrated that with sparkling wine on our commute back from work. Also, in August said friend moved away, closer to our office. I still see her at work but we don’t share the fun commutes anymore. Also, plums were ripe early this year. I made plenty of your favorite plum pie and brought them to the clinic. Then, our friends and the two of us had a weekend trip planned. You couldn’t come with us but I still went along. It was a very nice trip and a charming city. But I missed you tremendously.
September
September is all about the wine fest. What a fun time! I went to our company field trip. And you and I started hanging out at the Irish pub on weekends to watch soccer and eat burgers.
October
October was the month that we wanted to go on vacation. Early in the year we were sure that you’d return home before October. You did not. We cancelled the trip. Instead, that month was full of business trips for me again. One trip brought me back to Paris. I took an afternoon off to visit the Grand Palais. It felt great. Even though I usually find business travels quite exhausting I came back refreshed from this trip. Also, your parents visited us. It was hard for you to discuss your depression with them.
November
November must have been pretty boring. I hardly have any memory of it. Going through my pictures I found some pictures of dinners together and walks through the park. You felt well, mostly, but that was interrupted by repeated and severe setbacks.
December
December was fun. Well mostly. First I got sick. Sick from the stress and the worries about you. Throughout the previous months I became increasingly worried. Will you ever be ok again? What if your doctors have to give you up? Tell you that you were a hopeless case? But then, just like so many times before, your caring doctors proved me wrong. December brought a new diagnosis for you and prospects of a new treatment, but this time not at your clinic but three hours away from here. Well, seems like next year will be interesting! Yet again. In December I also travelled to Washington, D.C. What a fun trip that was, including a great conference. Once I came back we started our holiday season. It was so relaxing, just what we needed after a year like this. We both agreed that this was the best Christmas ever.
That was 2014. 2015, I’m ready!