A very merry Christmas

Christmas this year was wonderful. It was relaxing, without high expectations. And truly, what can be expected after the year that lies behind us?

You had some struggles on Christmas Eve and on Christmas Day morning. But you were able to handle them well and enjoy a restful and relaxing Christmas. We had many gifts to open, phone calls to the family to make, winter walks, and delicious dinners and wine.

The best of this Christmas for me was how thankful we both were to be able to spend it with each other. And the talks that we had, realizing how our relationship deepened during this last year, as hard as this year was for us. The best part for you was realizing how much better you felt compared to previous Chrismases. How you did not need to hide your sadness, anxiety, and confusion of going through an intense family holiday. I hope for more Christmases like this!

Merry Christmas to everyone!

On feeling better

It’s amazing what just one weekend can do!

During the last weeks I was extremely stressed out and increasingly nervous. It was a hard year. At the end of it I was completely exhausted. I couldn’t even finish with work (well, when is that ever done?) because my doctor sent me home early to rest. Once this month started all I wanted to do is finally fall. Fall to not feel the heavy burden that this year brought upon me. I wanted to fall and have someone else carry the load. Fall and feel a relieve. Fall and not care what happens next.

Then came the weekend. Last weekend. It started with a fun girls’ night out. Christmas market, hot wine, and good talks over an extremely tasty dinner. I came home late feeling exhausted and happy. On Saturday morning you came home, we ventured out right away to buy our Christmas tree and then spent a cosy afternoon at home decorating it. You felt happy and hopeful, for the first time in a long time. I felt calm and blessed for these happy moments and a restful weekend.

I’m happy and in Christmas spirit.